Reflection

As the New Year rolled in, I couldn't help but feel emotional as I reflected on the previous year. 2011 has been a rough one. It has been a true test of our faith. To the core. Instead of letting my mind focus on all the bad, all the heartbreak, all the disappointments, I tried to focus on what has come from this difficult year. I don't think my testimony has ever been stronger. My marriage as fulfilling. My relationship with my Heavenly Father closer. My love for the temple as deep. My level of compassion for others as high. My dependence on prayer, scripture study, and the Lord's help so intensely. Sounds like a pretty remarkable year right?! So many good things have come from this. That is where my mind needs to stay focused. I cannot and will not let Satan make me think otherwise. I do not want to think of it as another year wasted to infertility. But instead, as another year closer to achieving our family. It is hard to understand why yet another year bit the dust without us receiving the blessings of a family. But that is not for me to determine. I do not know what else I need to learn beforehand. Or when these children need to be on this Earth. I just need to trust my Heavenly Father. Trust the plan. It is hard to do when you ache for it so badly every second of every day. But it is out of my control. The only control I have is my faith. I can only hope for a bright future ahead. This quote definitely sums up 2011 for me.....