Ok

I've finally reached a level where I'm ok. I'm ok to not know the future. I'm ok to wait for our children to come. I'm ok with the concept that I have no control. That I have to surrender my desires and my timing to The Lord's plan. To have enough faith that it truly will all work out. It has taken me a long time to get here. But I'm here. Just trying to live my life in accordance with Heavenly Father. There are other things for me to focus on and live my life for right now. Everything else will fall into place. I've decided that serving others and trying to develop more talents will be my baby for now. There are so many people enduring unspeakable things. I have a lot of love to give to help. I also love music and am excited to focus and progress myself in that. This is my plan. To live and learn and leave the rest up to the Lord. I will continue to pray and hope for a family in the near future, but for now it's all ok.